The seed was planted in April of 2016. I was eating dinner with my friends after cheering my brains out on the sidelines of my first Boston Marathon.
At dinner, my friends asked me why I didn't want to try to run a Boston Marathon qualifying time. (For my age group, my Boston Marathon qualifying time aka BQ is 3 hours and 35 minutes.) I told them I didn't think I could do it. I said it wasn't a matter of surviving the training, I didn't think I'd be able to stick with it when I started to doubt myself and not quit.
After I left dinner, I couldn't stop thinking about what I had told them. I was disappointed in myself. I was frustrated. I wasn't proud that I thought I was a quitter.
Then, the next day I watched Beyonce's visual album Lemonade and I was so inspired, I announced that I was going to spend the next six months dedicated to running down my BQ. It seems silly that the power of Beyonce tipped me over the edge, but it's an important part of the story. Without Beyonce, I'm not sure I would have gone for it. God bless Beyonce.
I didn't know what to expect but I was scared.
I set my sights on finding a coach and knew after sitting down with Josh Maio, I knew that he was the one for me.
Finding a coach is like dating. You have to scope your options before making it Facebook Official. If I'm gonna #BQ during this year's #ChicagoMarathon, I need a coach who is going to push me, call me on my BS, and put up with this...often. I've got no chill. I'm terrified. But I'm excited because so much ass kicking is about to go down. (Did I find my coach? Pretty sure I did 🤘🏽) God I'm scared. Did I mention that I'm afraid? Because I'm terrified. #RunSelfieRepeat #TeamSaveTheChildren #TeamWR
He was funny, tough, but most importantly, I could tell that he believed in me. PRO TIP-- When you don't believe in yourself, surround yourself with people who do. They will be your life vests when you feel like you're drowning.
Without Josh, I would have quit. He knew what to say, when to say it, and he let me fall on my face without telling me "I told you so". He let me learn what it meant to say yes to myself and why I needed to trust my strength both on the track and on race day. He gave me space when I was struggling and let me ask for help when I was ready for it. He's an incredible coach and a kick ass human being. His humor and ability to make me laugh when I wanted to cry my eyes out made the entire experience fun.
He's also one of the reasons why I wanted to keep going after finishing Chicago 6 minutes shy of my goal.
He and Dr. Bob. But I mean Dr. Bob isn't human. He's a magical wizard of a sports psychologist who gave me more gifts than anyone ever. No regrets, no excuses changed my life. Making the decision not to suffer? GAME CHANGER. He gave me the tools I needed to change my mental game.
So here we are, with 108 days left until my second Boston Marathon qualifying attempt. Am I terrified like I was during my first attempt? No. I'm excited. I'm intimidated by the amount of work it's going to require. That hasn't changed. This time around, I know what I have to do and I know that I can do it.
My biggest takeaway from 2016 is that I need to push myself further than I think I can. In those moments when I'm hurting and I don't think I can keep going, I need to keep fighting. I need to get uncomfortable as much as I can and I need to have fun doing it. Because the only thing I know about myself is that if I'm not having fun, I won't do it. It's possible, it's just going to require patience and grit.
I have one hell of a team behind me and once again, I'm daily vlogging the entire experience on my YouTube channel. You'll see all the highs and all the lows. Every single doubt, set back and breakthrough.
So whether you're thinking about getting ready to run your first 5K or if you're trying to BQ alongside me, know this, it isn't about the finishing time or the distnace. It's about saying yes to goals that feel impossible. Pushing yourself outside of your comfort zone isn't easy and it's a hell of a lot more fun when you're not alone. Let's prove to ourselves that we're a hell of a lot stronger than we think we are.
So this time around, don't just watch me push myself to see what I'm capable of. The London Marathon, my goal race, is about 4 months away. Join me by setting your own goal that you can possibly accomplish within 3-5 months. We can struggle, fight, fall back, and persevere together.
The London Marathon is going to be here before we know it. Don't get caught up in the end result, focus on what you can do today.
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Until next time, #RunSelfieRepeat.