Patience and Imposter Heart Attacks

This was a very strange week for me. On Monday I felt like my heart was exploding. It was a very strange moment, I was talking to a coworker and I just blurted out, "I feel like I'm having a heart attack." They gave me a very puzzled look and asked what I meant and I said, "I feel like my heart just exploded in my chest." After work I tried to run like a dumb dumb and was ridiculously uncomfortable. I was stopping every mile to try to stretch it out and finally gave up at 3 miles.

Here's a really good tip, "If it hurts...DON'T RUN." Why I can't seem to follow my own advice, I will never know but honestly it's not worth it. I went home and grabbed my trusty Trigger Points Ball to see if I could work my shoulders and alleviate the chest pain. The pain didn't go away so I texted my wonderful roommate who also happens to be a doctor, Dr. Molly.

I spent the next day in the exact same pain but didn't think it was serious enough to go to a Doctor. Then when I woke up Wednesday, I went in to PT before work and asked my PT Mike if he thought I was dying. He said no but that he didn't believe my shoulder tension and my chest pain were related and that I needed to go get it checked out. I sighed and called my Doctor. 

I go in and we do an EKG, some blood work, and she pokes around and can't figure out what's wrong. Good news, no heart attack. Bad news, she has no idea what was happening. So what the hell happened? I haven't a clue but it's feeling better today so YAY? I went for a 4.5 mile run yesterday with my friend Gregg which was a nice way to get back on the horse. The hardest part about marathon training is dealing with speed bumps when they arise. Injuries are inevitable and your schedule will at times be impossible to juggle. BUT you can't let the hiccups get you down. I got really antsy taking a mere 3 days off and that is nothing. The most important thing you will learn if you so decide to run a marathon is patience. It takes so much patience to train for and run a marathon. 

Take care of yourselves friends. Get your yearly physical if you haven't done so already. It's really important to get checked out before you decide to train for any sort of endurance race. And most importantly be patient. It really is one day at a time. Until tomorrow, #RunSelfieRepeat.

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Kelly Roberts

It all started when a silly joke made headlines back in 2014 when I took selfies with hot guys “hottie hunting” my way through the New York City Half Marathon. But ironically enough, I haven't always been a runner. As the self-proclaimed former President of the "I f*cking hate running club", I spent most of my life finding ways to avoid physical activity. Growing up, I missed over 70 days of PE my senior year. Working out was something I thought I had to suffer through in order to lose weight. 

Then, in 2009, my younger brother passed away unexpectedly and struggling to manage my grief, I gained more than 75 pounds. With the weight gain came a new fight to regain my sense of self and learn to love the body I saw when I looked in the mirror. Then one Thanksgiving morning, drowning in grief and self doubt, I decided to go for a run. I didn't make it half way down my street before I had to stop to walk but for some reason, struggling forward made more sense than getting back into bed. It turns out that running is a lot like grief, neither ever really get easier, you just get stronger. 

Over time, I realized that while some people are in fact born runners, others are made. I created this blog Run, Selfie, Repeat and my new podcast by the same name with the hopes to inspire others to say yes to themselves while making them laugh hysterically because laughing, in my opinion, is the solution to everything. 

Named by Women's Running as one of twenty women who are changing the sport of running and by Competitor Magazine as one of 12 Influential and inspiring runners under 30, my mission is to inspire others to get embrace a healthy lifestyle and pursue the strongest version of themselves possible.