Thank You

Last week, I was running with a new friend and she asked me how long I'd been living in New York. After doing some thinking I realized that it was actually my 2 year anniversary, to the day. I've been so busy hustling this little horse and pony show that I forgot that two years had flown by.

Moving to New York was terrifying. I always knew I wanted to live in this city but I was too afraid to make it happen. It took a year, 2 half marathons and 1 full marathon to muster the courage to take a chance on myself. It wasn't easy picking my life up and moving away from my family to one of the craziest (and most expensive) cities in the world (without a career path).

Every step of the last two years has been terrifying. I don't think a lot of people realize this because I'm so open but much of what I share with you was a guarded secret for most of my life. I didn't like sharing the things I once believed made me weak and vulnerable. I thought I was in control of how people perceived me and in turn I put on a very intimidating and strong facade. And unfortunately, my history with my weight has been something I felt ashamed of for many, many, many years. But life's messy and it's so much easier to let my guard down and be authentic and vulnerable in the hopes that someone else will find the courage to do so as well. I'm not perfect and I really don't have any intention of pretending I am.

It's been a really reflective week for me. My 26th birthday is on Saturday and it's a little overwhelming to think about all the things that have happened in the past year. Last year on my birthday I wrote about how I didn't think anything could ever top my 24th year.  But somehow my 25th year surpassed 24th by a long shot and I just want to say thank you. Thank you for being apart of this crazy ride. Thank you for writing to me and being so open and vulnerable about your own lives. Thank you for standing with me while I've navigated the unknown and tried to figure out how to find myself. (I'm still searching in case you were wondering. I have a feeling it's a never ending search.) I wish there was a button I could push to make everything slow down. It's all happening really, really fast.

It's been a wild and wacky ride thus far and one week from today I will be in Germany getting ready to run the Berlin Marathon. I haven't processed how I feel about it just yet but it's a cross between terrified and excited. Thanks again for being apart of my life, here's to another exhausting and exhilarating year. Until next time, #RunSelfieRepeat.

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Kelly Roberts

It all started when a silly joke made headlines back in 2014 when I took selfies with hot guys “hottie hunting” my way through the New York City Half Marathon. But ironically enough, I haven't always been a runner. As the self-proclaimed former President of the "I f*cking hate running club", I spent most of my life finding ways to avoid physical activity. Growing up, I missed over 70 days of PE my senior year. Working out was something I thought I had to suffer through in order to lose weight. 

Then, in 2009, my younger brother passed away unexpectedly and struggling to manage my grief, I gained more than 75 pounds. With the weight gain came a new fight to regain my sense of self and learn to love the body I saw when I looked in the mirror. Then one Thanksgiving morning, drowning in grief and self doubt, I decided to go for a run. I didn't make it half way down my street before I had to stop to walk but for some reason, struggling forward made more sense than getting back into bed. It turns out that running is a lot like grief, neither ever really get easier, you just get stronger. 

Over time, I realized that while some people are in fact born runners, others are made. I created this blog Run, Selfie, Repeat and my new podcast by the same name with the hopes to inspire others to say yes to themselves while making them laugh hysterically because laughing, in my opinion, is the solution to everything. 

Named by Women's Running as one of twenty women who are changing the sport of running and by Competitor Magazine as one of 12 Influential and inspiring runners under 30, my mission is to inspire others to get embrace a healthy lifestyle and pursue the strongest version of themselves possible.