What Goes Through My Head When I Run

"What do you think about when you run?" That is, hands down, the most common question I get asked about running. Running to a lot of people is a chore or a punishment. Back in High School the teacher would make you run a lap if you were caught goofing off or not following instructions. Running was literally a form of punishment and that's exactly how I thought of it until I started running. That was when I realized that running is a lot more than just a great way to stay in shape.

Every single run is different. Sometimes I think about just about everything when I go for a run and other times it's like the world is in a pause and my brain empties. This is what goes through my head when I run --

1. Food.

Basically my life. #RunSelfieRepeat

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9 times out of 10 I am thinking about what I am going to eat when I finish. If I'm on a long run, I'm thinking about a cheeseburger or maybe steak and eggs. Half the time I don't even end up eating anything special but I will spend a good 3-10 miles focusing on a cheeseburger if I'm having a bad run.

2. My Brother.

My little brother Scott passed away in 2009 and I don't think a run has happened where he didn't creep into my brain. Running has really become a way for me to grieve. I can think about him, talk to him or just remember him. Being outside is the best way to be with him and running helps me do it in a way where I feel like I'm moving forward.

3. My To Do List.

WHYYYYY. F*ckkkkkkkkkkkkk. #CurrentMood #RunSelfieRepeat #touristolympics

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Do I have plans later? Did I do that thing that I said I would do? (Probably not.) What about that other thing I said I was going to do? (Nope.) How am I going to respond to that email? Did you respond to that email? My mental to do list triples every single time I go for a run.

4. My Future.

I like to imagine what my future is going to be like when I run. Sometimes it's practical like when I brainstorm story ideas or flesh out future projects or it can be a little fantastical like when I plan my wedding and subsequent hilarious life with Andy Sandberg.

5. My Past.

Mistakes, choices, missed opportunities, regrets, embarrassing things I've done, I spend a lot of time remembering and reflecting on the good and the bad of my past.

6. Dudes.

17 mile motivation. #runselfierepeat #hottiehunting #centralpark

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I'll spend a good 5 minutes thinking about a hot guy who runs past. What's his name? What's his story? What does he do? Why does he run? Is he single? It's crazy but I spend a lot of time thinking about stranger men who run past me. (What? I'm being honest.)

7. I Daydream.

Walk in to the club like... #beats1run #RunSelfieRepeat #nailedit

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Running is like crack for my imagination. I already have a very vivid and active imagination but when I run, it's on another level.

8. Training.

I think about how I feel and how my training is going. If I'm doing an interval or speed workout, I'll think about how miserable I am and how much I hate it. If I'm having a bad long run, I'll think about how much further I have to go and how much it sucks. If I'm having a great run, I'll think about how great my training is going. I spend a lot of time thinking about my next run.

9. That thing that I forgot to do and will inevitably forget to do once I get home. (Even though I make a mental note not to forget to do it.)

Running helps me remember all the things I forgot to do. (Unfortunately the second I stop running I often forget them again.)

10. What groceries I am going to buy at the store later.

The struggles of being a runner. Thanks Mom... #RunSelfieRepeat

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I almost always end up planning out what I'm going to eat the following week while I run so I also make my grocery list.

11. How much further I have to go.

This is like the avada kedavra of death glares. #BKHalf #RunSelfieRepeat

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"Am I there yet" is often something I am asking myself when I run.

12. Why?

"Why am I doing this again?" runs through my head for the first half mile of most of my runs. I rarely have an answer.

13. I feel so much better.

That is until I get home and I realize that I feel like I can breath again. Even when I don't think anything is bothering me, I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders after a run. It's pretty incredible what running does for your mind. It never feels like it during but even the shittiest, rotten, every step is worse than the one before it run is better than no run at all. Funny how that works. Until next time, #RunSelfieRepeat.

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Kelly Roberts

My name is Kelly Roberts and I am a 25 year old New York City resident. My story made headlines when I took selfies with hot guys โ€œhottie huntingโ€ my way through the NYC Half Marathon. My blog, www.RunSelfieRepeat.com is bursting with humor and personal stories that lend an insight into the world of running and lead you to believe that just about anyone, regardless of their fitness level, can and should fall in love with running. Though currently an avid runner, I never would have predicted I would run marathons. I was the kid who used to hide in the bushes or play dead to get out of running the mile in school. I HATED running. But running has given me a purpose. Itโ€™s shown me that I really am limitless. In the two years since I started running, Iโ€™ve run multiple half marathons, 10ks, and 5ks, and two full marathons. My mission is to inspire others to find the courage to say yes to themselves all the while making them laugh hysterically because laughing is the solution to everything.