I need to clarify what I mean when I say that I'm not good at running. I don't mean that I'm not progressing or that I'm not proud of how far I've come. I mean that I don't think I'm a naturally gifted runner. Running doesn't feel like second nature to me and 9 times out of 10, I feel like every single step is an uphill battle. I think everyone is naturally good at something and for me, running isn't it. Now that doesn't mean I don't push myself or use it as an excuse, it just means that I get frustrated when an "easier" workout ends up being a struggle. (I put easier in quotes because easy is 100% relative and specific to each individual runner. Your easy may be my impossible etc etc etc.) Does that make sense?
Look, trying to BQ has turned out to be infinitely harder in ways I never imagined. I knew this was going to be difficult. I knew I was going to spend the entire time pushing myself out of my comfort zone. But what I didn't expect was how often I would doubt myself or feel myself pulling back. It's aggravating and it's driving me nuts. The one thing that is keeping me going right now is knowing that I'm not alone.
I get a lot of emails and messages and getting to hear about your journeys and what you're going through is easily the best part of my day. It's really hard to get through and respond to them all, but I try to make sure you know just how profound of an impact you all have on me. I'm humbled and motivated every single day by our #RunSelfieRepeat and #SportsBraSquad. You guys kick so much ass and motivate me to keep fighting when I just want to quit.
Look, we all know that running isn't easy. Most of the things we do every single day aren't! It's the challenge that keeps us going. I would say the majority of my runs and workouts are mediocre or not so great. But the really great runs, though few and far between, are so incredible that they make every painful (and sometimes miserable) step worth it. I wish I could remember those moments when I get uncomfortable and find myself starting to pull back.
I think it may be time to call Dr. Bob...Stay tuned...
We just have to keep going. There's no giving up!
Until next time, #RunSelfieRepeat.