You Made Me Cry, Thank You

I need to clarify what I mean when I say that I'm not good at running. I don't mean that I'm not progressing or that I'm not proud of how far I've come. I mean that I don't think I'm a naturally gifted runner. Running doesn't feel like second nature to me and 9 times out of 10, I feel like every single step is an uphill battle. I think everyone is naturally good at something and for me, running isn't it. Now that doesn't mean I don't push myself or use it as an excuse, it just means that I get frustrated when an "easier" workout ends up being a struggle. (I put easier in quotes because easy is 100% relative and specific to each individual runner. Your easy may be my impossible etc etc etc.) Does that make sense?

Look, trying to BQ has turned out to be infinitely harder in ways I never imagined. I knew this was going to be difficult. I knew I was going to spend the entire time pushing myself out of my comfort zone. But what I didn't expect was how often I would doubt myself or feel myself pulling back. It's aggravating and it's driving me nuts. The one thing that is keeping me going right now is knowing that I'm not alone.

I get a lot of emails and messages and getting to hear about your journeys and what you're going through is easily the best part of my day. It's really hard to get through and respond to them all, but I try to make sure you know just how profound of an impact you all have on me. I'm humbled and motivated every single day by our #RunSelfieRepeat and #SportsBraSquad. You guys kick so much ass and motivate me to keep fighting when I just want to quit.

Look, we all know that running isn't easy. Most of the things we do every single day aren't! It's the challenge that keeps us going. I would say the majority of my runs and workouts are mediocre or not so great. But the really great runs, though few and far between, are so incredible that they make every painful (and sometimes miserable) step worth it. I wish I could remember those moments when I get uncomfortable and find myself starting to pull back.

I think it may be time to call Dr. Bob...Stay tuned...

We just have to keep going. There's no giving up!

Until next time, #RunSelfieRepeat.

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Kelly Roberts

It all started when a silly joke made headlines back in 2014 when I took selfies with hot guys “hottie hunting” my way through the New York City Half Marathon. But ironically enough, I haven't always been a runner. As the self-proclaimed former President of the "I f*cking hate running club", I spent most of my life finding ways to avoid physical activity. Growing up, I missed over 70 days of PE my senior year. Working out was something I thought I had to suffer through in order to lose weight. 

Then, in 2009, my younger brother passed away unexpectedly and struggling to manage my grief, I gained more than 75 pounds. With the weight gain came a new fight to regain my sense of self and learn to love the body I saw when I looked in the mirror. Then one Thanksgiving morning, drowning in grief and self doubt, I decided to go for a run. I didn't make it half way down my street before I had to stop to walk but for some reason, struggling forward made more sense than getting back into bed. It turns out that running is a lot like grief, neither ever really get easier, you just get stronger. 

Over time, I realized that while some people are in fact born runners, others are made. I created this blog Run, Selfie, Repeat and my new podcast by the same name with the hopes to inspire others to say yes to themselves while making them laugh hysterically because laughing, in my opinion, is the solution to everything. 

Named by Women's Running as one of twenty women who are changing the sport of running and by Competitor Magazine as one of 12 Influential and inspiring runners under 30, my mission is to inspire others to get embrace a healthy lifestyle and pursue the strongest version of themselves possible.