Live for Today

Today would have been my brother Scott's 22nd birthday. It's been almost 6 years since he's passed and every year I wait for this day to get get easier. Every year the same question plays on repeat as I sink into the rabbit hole of grief, "How could this happen to us?" I wish I had the answer but I don't. This is my favorite question, "Are you ok?" No? Yes? Define "OK." I suppose the answer is no, I'm not ok. When you lose someone you don't really get a choice to be "OK' or "not OK." Unfortunately the world doesn't pause for me today so I can take the time to grieve. Today is just another day for everyone else in the world. 

Something I try really very hard to do whenever I slip into the rabbit hole is throw myself into celebration and gratitude. I seek out every ounce of joy possible because the last thing I want to do is feel shitty. My brother had the most infectious smile I've ever seen because he was always scheming. He was my partner in crime. So I try to be happy for him. I try to celebrate him and live my life as fearlessly as possible for him. That's why I'm so open with both my joy and my pain. 

Unfortunately the day is going to come when you will get a phone call telling you that your mother, father, sister, brother, best friend, partner, family member, or one of your people has passed away. That day is going to come and it doesn't matter if they lived a full beautiful life or were taken to soon, that day is going to shatter you. You only have one thing in life and that's today. You only have today to live. So what I need you to do is take a minute and ask yourself if you are owning your life. Are you doing everything you want to do with your life? 

Today I treated myself to a spinning class at one of my favorite places in the whole wide world FlyWheel and "I Live" by One Repeublic came on and I lost it.

There I was balling my eyes out, IN THE FRONT ROW, because it reminded me of Scott. (That's another beautiful thing grief teaches you, to cry unapologetically. You learn not to feel ridiculous because it's something you can't control.) But this song pretty much sums up everything I am trying to say. It reminds you to step into the driver's seat and live. Cheesy, yes, but I don't care. You have to love, yourself and your people, fiercely and openly. You only get today to try to make yourself the best you possible. It doesn't matter how you do that but it's never to late. 

Go do something special for someone today. Smile at a stranger, join a gym, sign up for a half marathon, join a charity team, dance naked, tell someone you love them, book that trip you're hesitating to pull the trigger on, spend an hour alone with your kids, call that family member or friend you've been avoiding. Own every single second. Open your heart today and go laugh until you pee your pants. 

Until next time, #RunSelfieRepeat.

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Kelly Roberts

My name is Kelly Roberts and I am a 25 year old New York City resident. My story made headlines when I took selfies with hot guys “hottie hunting” my way through the NYC Half Marathon. My blog, www.RunSelfieRepeat.com is bursting with humor and personal stories that lend an insight into the world of running and lead you to believe that just about anyone, regardless of their fitness level, can and should fall in love with running. Though currently an avid runner, I never would have predicted I would run marathons. I was the kid who used to hide in the bushes or play dead to get out of running the mile in school. I HATED running. But running has given me a purpose. It’s shown me that I really am limitless. In the two years since I started running, I’ve run multiple half marathons, 10ks, and 5ks, and two full marathons. My mission is to inspire others to find the courage to say yes to themselves all the while making them laugh hysterically because laughing is the solution to everything.

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14 Scenarios That Are A Runner's Worst Nightmare

Most runner's are very particular about where they run, what they run with, and how they train. We all have these routines that we stick to, rarely deviating from path we've set for ourselves. We fear the moment when disaster strikes and all hell breaks loose. The crack in the road that leads to a fracture, that strange pain in your hip that turns out to be IT Band related, or feeling that rumbly in your tumbly and realizing you're a mile from a bathroom. Ladies and Gentlemen I give to you 14 Scenarios That Are A Runner's Worst Nightmare. 

1. Pressing pause on RunKeeper or your GPS watch and forgetting to press resume.

2. Getting to a water station during a race and finding only sports drinks.

14 Scenarios That Are A Runner's Worst Nightmare

3. Runners who stop during a race without warning.

4. Runners who don't signal and collide right into you.

5. Getting 5 miles into your long run and realizing you left your energy gels on your bed.

6. Runner's trots. ::shudders::

7. Having to start in the middle of the pack before a race and getting stuck behind slower runners.

14 Scenarios That Are A Runner's Worst Nightmare

8. Long porter potty lines.

9. Getting to a race late and not having enough time to go potty before the start.

10. Tripping over a curb and ending up in a cast.

11. Cyclists who don't yield.

12. Cars that roll through stoplights or stop signs.

13. All collisions.

14. Coming in last.

Here's to hoping none of these things ever happen to you. What's your worst nightmare? Share you running horror stories! Until tomorrow, #RunSelfieRepeat.

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Kelly Roberts

My name is Kelly Roberts and I am a 25 year old New York City resident. My story made headlines when I took selfies with hot guys “hottie hunting” my way through the NYC Half Marathon. My blog, www.RunSelfieRepeat.com is bursting with humor and personal stories that lend an insight into the world of running and lead you to believe that just about anyone, regardless of their fitness level, can and should fall in love with running. Though currently an avid runner, I never would have predicted I would run marathons. I was the kid who used to hide in the bushes or play dead to get out of running the mile in school. I HATED running. But running has given me a purpose. It’s shown me that I really am limitless. In the two years since I started running, I’ve run multiple half marathons, 10ks, and 5ks, and two full marathons. My mission is to inspire others to find the courage to say yes to themselves all the while making them laugh hysterically because laughing is the solution to everything.

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The 10 Worst Parts About Morning Workouts

There are two types of people in this world, morning people and everyone else. I'm a morning person. I love waking up early! But ask me to wake up before 6am to workout before work and I turn into a raging dragon woman.

These are the 10 worst parts about waking up to workout.

1. Waking Up

It's terrifying when your alarm goes off that early. And if you happen to wake up a few minutes before your alarm GOD HELP YOU. IT'S DISORIENTING!

2. Getting Out Of Bed.

Inside your bed it is warm and wonderful. Outside your bed is cold and terrible. Why leave?

3. Debating Whether You Really Need To Go Workout

"You should sleep that cold is gong around"-Your brain says. "Just workout really hard another time."

4. Realizing You Wasted 15 Minutes Arguing With Yourself About Whether You Should Go To The Gym.

That's why as soon as that alarm goes off you have to fling yourself out of your bed! Literally throw your body weight and find coffee ASAP.

5. Trying To Put on Spandex At 5 In The Morning.

Why is spandex so difficult to get on that early in the morning?

6. Trying To Pack Your Work Bag And A Change Of Clothes.

Then getting to the gym and realizing you forgot work shoes and underwear.

7. Trying to Wake Up.

There's nothing worse than jumping into a workout with cold muscles.

8. Showering At The Gym.

Unless you go to a snazzy boutique gym, everyone is going to be up in your business. And if you're a girl the locker room is like a zoo! People are very territorial.

9. Getting Ready For Work At The Gym.

#Wet Hair Dont Care. God bless the pony tail.

10. Coming To The Realization That Working Out In The Morning Is Always Better Than Sleeping In.

No matter the struggle to get there, you never regret working out in the morning. In fact it puts you in a better place to really attack your day. Lord knows I hate waking up early for a workout but if you're like me, CLICK HERE for some tips and tricks about dragging yourself out of bed. That's what I do. Until tomorrow, #RunSelfieRepeat.

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Kelly Roberts

My name is Kelly Roberts and I am a 25 year old New York City resident. My story made headlines when I took selfies with hot guys “hottie hunting” my way through the NYC Half Marathon. My blog, www.RunSelfieRepeat.com is bursting with humor and personal stories that lend an insight into the world of running and lead you to believe that just about anyone, regardless of their fitness level, can and should fall in love with running. Though currently an avid runner, I never would have predicted I would run marathons. I was the kid who used to hide in the bushes or play dead to get out of running the mile in school. I HATED running. But running has given me a purpose. It’s shown me that I really am limitless. In the two years since I started running, I’ve run multiple half marathons, 10ks, and 5ks, and two full marathons. My mission is to inspire others to find the courage to say yes to themselves all the while making them laugh hysterically because laughing is the solution to everything.

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21 Things Non-Runners Say To Runners

I love my friends. I have what feels like 57 billion best friends out those 57 billion best friends, only 3 of them run. 3! And only 1 of those 3 best friends who run, runs marathons! My friend’s  are very supportive of my wacky running ways but they don’t get it. They don't love that I disappear when I’m training for a marathon and use the excuse, “I can’t I have to run in the morning.” I can't blame my non-runners friends for not understanding the love hate relationship I have with running, but the things they say to me crack me up. Here are 21 things my non-running friends say that prove that they just don't get it.

 “How many races have you won?”

“Do you run fast?”

“Runners are crazy.”

“Running is bad for your knees, you should be careful.”

21 Things Non-Runners Say to Runners

“You waste so much money on running races for fun. I bet you'd save a lot of money if you just ran in the park.”

“You spent how much money to run a marathon!? You can’t pay me that much money to run around the block.”

“I wanted to get into running but then I realized I hated running.”

“I know someone who’s run like, 20 marathons are they are really fast.”

"I know someone else who's running the marathon too! They've done, like 20 marathons and they don't run half as much as you."

“What do you think about when you run that long?”

“You ran how far this morning?! I just got up.”

“Aren't you worrying about your nipples bleeding?”

"I have a friend who ran as much as you do and she really messed up her body."

“I wanted to come cheer for you but I forgot to wake up...And it's cold.”

“Where have you been I feel like I never see you anymore?”

“I don’t get why you run.”

“You’re eating a lot. I’m worried about you.”

"You're running a lot. I'm worried about you."

“You ran in this weather!?”

"Is running really that much fun?"

and my personal favorite

"Are you doing drugs or has all the running gone to your head?"

I love meeting other runners because they get it. They understand why you spend your free money on entry fees to races or gear instead of relaxing vacations, beautiful shoes, concerts, or sporting events. They love hearing about your training and sharing how theirs is going as well. We all know the joy and pain that comes with running for hours on end. We know that inexplicable feeling of crossing a finish line of a distance we never thought we could run. But most importantly, I love my runners because they are always down for post long run brunch in sweaty and gross clothes. You never have to ask, “Would you help me eat an order of pancakes, steak and eggs, and potatoes?” Or “do you want a beer?” The answer is always yes and we are also getting waffles because CAN I LIVE!?!? But running an ungodly long distance means you get to enjoy a delicious meal, guilt free. And that is a feeling only runners understand.

We all run at different paces, different distances, and for different reasons but at the end of the day we all share the same love for flying forward and pushing our limits. Thank you to all my runners for just getting it. Until next time, #RunSelfieRepeat.    

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Kelly Roberts

My name is Kelly Roberts and I am a 25 year old New York City resident. My story made headlines when I took selfies with hot guys “hottie hunting” my way through the NYC Half Marathon. My blog, www.RunSelfieRepeat.com is bursting with humor and personal stories that lend an insight into the world of running and lead you to believe that just about anyone, regardless of their fitness level, can and should fall in love with running. Though currently an avid runner, I never would have predicted I would run marathons. I was the kid who used to hide in the bushes or play dead to get out of running the mile in school. I HATED running. But running has given me a purpose. It’s shown me that I really am limitless. In the two years since I started running, I’ve run multiple half marathons, 10ks, and 5ks, and two full marathons. My mission is to inspire others to find the courage to say yes to themselves all the while making them laugh hysterically because laughing is the solution to everything.

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The Difference Between Doing Your Best and Trying Your Hardest

Have you ever had a fortune cookie slap some perspective into you? I have! (I always knew cookies were good for me.) Yesterday my friends and I went down to Chinatown to watch the Chinese New Year Parade. Chinatown is like the happiest war zone on earth during the parade because hundreds of people set off huge, loud, wonderful confetti cannons (2 for $5-arguably the best deal in NYC). Every 5 seconds you hear a thundering boom and then see a rainfall of confetti.

After we worked up an appetite celebrating and shooting confetti cannons, we went out to dinner and then this happened.

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Truer words have never been spoken by a cookie. A goal I set for myself this year was to get faster by running a 1:45 half marathon and break 4 hours in the marathon. Both times are fairly lofty goals for me but definitely possible with some hard work and dedication. I made a plan of attack in January and I started doing speed work twice a week. Almost all of my running has been done on a treadmill and recently I’ve been miserable. I rarely look forward to my post work runs (though I always feel wonderful after it’s over) and I spend every minute watching the clock tick down.

Then on Saturday I got to run with my new best friend Gregg of NYC Sweat in Central Park and he, coupled with my inspirational cookie, put everything back into perspective. We ran 11 effortless miles and laughed the entire way. Both Gregg and my cookie helped me take that necessary step away from my goal and back into the land of the now. I realized that there’s a difference between doing your best and trying your hardest. Giving your best isn’t only about how fast, how hard, or how far you go but also how happy you are doing it. When it comes to fitness goals, if you aren’t having fun or if you’re not enjoying yourself then what’s the point?

All the fun is being had in this picture.

One of the easiest mistakes you can make when working towards a fitness goal is feeling ashamed, discouraged or defeated by where you're at instead of empowered by it. We all have to start somewhere! It doesn’t matter how fast you’re doing it, how long it’s taking, or how far you’re going, it’s the fact that you’re showing up and putting the work in that counts. And sometimes you have to stop to smell the flowers, to take a break and remind yourself why made the goal in the first place.

I may have been trying my hardest when it came to my speed work but there’s a difference between giving something your best and trying your hardest. Your best is all encompassing; it’s both physical and mental. You have to find that balance between both pain and pleasure. You have to remember why you set the goal in the first place. Maybe you are training for your first 5K, half marathon, or marathon or maybe you want to get faster. Results take time and you won’t stick with it unless you are enjoying the journey. Take a minute to celebrate how far you’ve come. Like the cookie said, the best effort you give now puts in the best place for whatever is coming next. Until next time, #RunSelfieRepeat.

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Kelly Roberts

My name is Kelly Roberts and I am a 25 year old New York City resident. My story made headlines when I took selfies with hot guys “hottie hunting” my way through the NYC Half Marathon. My blog, www.RunSelfieRepeat.com is bursting with humor and personal stories that lend an insight into the world of running and lead you to believe that just about anyone, regardless of their fitness level, can and should fall in love with running. Though currently an avid runner, I never would have predicted I would run marathons. I was the kid who used to hide in the bushes or play dead to get out of running the mile in school. I HATED running. But running has given me a purpose. It’s shown me that I really am limitless. In the two years since I started running, I’ve run multiple half marathons, 10ks, and 5ks, and two full marathons. My mission is to inspire others to find the courage to say yes to themselves all the while making them laugh hysterically because laughing is the solution to everything.

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